Hey all.
I am leaving Sunday and going "Off The Grid" so to speak for the bulk of May. No Phone, no internet, no cable, big ass Douglas Fir trees and the woodland critters and with my luck the ghost of some horribly murdered Miner that died in 1898 that "Everyone in town KNOWS about, and why the hell would you rent THAT place?!"
I am going to be returning home on June 3rd.
I am going to have intermittent internet access while traveling and am going to be posting journal entries and pics.
I am scared shitless. Kid you not.
I have not been away from my kids for longer than the 3 weeks that I deployed into Louisiana during Katrina since they were born. Dittos for being away from my wife.
Whats got me scared is that this is a trip designed to give me some time for self discovery. It is a herald of change and after living static for awhile I am frankly not sure what I will find at the end. Hopefully myself again. I do know that whatever decisions I make in the course of this are about my LIFE which includes my wife and two dear little ones. Finding a future without them in it would be pretty bleak and hopeless.
And, really, that's why I am going off to find some solitude for a while. To try to figure out my future and maybe try to put some things to rest. Too much noise around me here, too many easy traps of comfort and status quo to get caught up in. I need to be "uncomfortable" for a while.

And I finally get to see the wilderness. Short of biting the bullet and heading up to Alaska I am going to be going places that are remote as you can get in this country in this day and age. Not for the entire length of time, but for enough of it I hope. Which adds to the scared shitless part.
I am a 41 year old man trying to figure out where, what and who I will be in the second half of my life. I have not camped or seriously hiked in years. I live a life of comfort and convenience. Stepping out of that is a little daunting. I will be hiking in and camping carrying about 45-48 pounds of gear and fetching my own water with a filtration pump and eating what I carry in with me. Stepping out of comfort to be sure. Not to mention it has probably been a good 5-8 years since I had to use a toilet hole dug in the woods, lol.
Scared... yeah. But I'm also practically quivering with excitement to be about it.
I am going to post this or something similar at TOS and as I said I will be updating with pics and entries where I can.
Keep your fingers crossed for me and a few prayers for soft roads, no bears and no haunted cabins would not go awry either.
