My first official day of freedom as school started for the girls. I spent it doing laundry, it had gotten seriously backed up ever since my brother died. I was only doing it when someone ran out of towels, jeans/shorts or underwear. I also finished up some thank you notes for people that did special things for my family since my brother died. I also washed my sheets and put them back on my bed. I LOVE sheet washing day. I make my bed so tight and my sheets feel so good all clean and smelling of smelly goodness that I can't wait to go to bed tonight. I'm also making spinach stuffed chicken tonight, it is wrapped in bacon and is so YUMMA.
My brother called (obviously the one who didn't die). He pissed me off after about an hour of talking about himself (like he always does), he starting something about politics and taxes and I let him get to me. I said I'm sorry if your life is a disappointment, it's not my husband's duty to pay for your lack of success and the stupid choices you have yourself admittedly made. He said something about how he didn't feel sorry for someone like me (someone like me is a person with a nice house and nice "things") when I bitch about taxes and how I never knew what it is like to live on macaroni and tomato juice (it's good, trust me).
I got really pissed and told him to screw off that the first years of our marriage I ate spaghetti and butter for weeks on end and that I know what it is like to be POOR. That at times after I bought diapers and formula for my son that there was often nothing left to buy groceries for my husband and me. That when I had a stroke (I didn't have insurance) the hospital considered us INDIGENT and wrote off all but $1000 of the bill. Even though we were "indigent" we still had to pay the doctors and it took YEARS to pay off these doctors. I also noted it took us 10 years to pay off my husbands student loans and that unfortunately for me I didn't have the option to live with my mom or dad during those times, let alone when I was in my 40's like him. Normally I don't let him get to me but today he set me off. Then I feel bad after I say things like that to him.