I would rather die than go that way
Ditto.
I had an uncle that committed suicide. He had watched his older, sharp as a tack brother(my dad) decline as Alzheimers took over. He stated that he wasn't going to get "like that". When he realized he had started down that road he did something about it, he committed suicide. It was hard on my aunt who took it as a sign of her not taking good enough care of him. Several of us told her that there was nothing short of holding both of his hands 24/7 that would have stopped him from doing it. He was hard headed and stubborn like that, just like his older brother. He was a great fellow and many people loved him but when he made up his mind, there was no stopping him. My dad would have probably done the same had he know what was going to happen to him.
I not good with kind words and mushy-mush stuff but if any of you have a loved one with Alzheimers and want/need to chat, PM or e-mail me and we'll chat.