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Javaman (49,281 posts) https://www.democraticunderground.com/10029694480Sometimes I cry...this is a big confession on my part.not that I'm a "manly man" who doesn't cry or anything like that. It's mostly out of frustration.My gf works retail so as such our schedules don't always jibe and I find myself alone often at home with my dog.I have found myself watching various videos of "human kindness" more and more on Youtube. I do this to help restore my faith in humanity after reading one horrible story after another in the news.It grips me so to such a point that I can't help myself. I have to vent the pent up anger and sadness that overwhelms me.I was thinking the other day, that god forbid we got into a war with NK, and they fired a nuke at us. I had flash backs as a kid living through the cold war and how bone deep terrified I was of being nuked. That bubbled to the surface again. And the water works sprung forth.I think of all the daily violence from shootings and mass killings and I again, weep.I try as best as I can to be calm cool and collected during the day, but when I am alone, I cry at just the truly criminal things that are happening all around us.I love the beauty of the world and the truly remarkable things that are out there and the things we take for granted every single day while all this horrible-ness clouds our thoughts.I stand outside and think, "we still have air, we still have trees, we still, for the most part have clean water. I am lucky, for most of the world does not have these things".I sit with my thoughts and smell the fresh air after a storm or watch the wild flowers that grow along my fence. These simple things give me solitude, peace of mind knowing that no matter how the right wing tries, these simple things; they can never ever take away.But then I hear another tragedy by the hands of yet another nut, racist, right wing heartless bastard perpetrated upon the weak, the less powerful, minorities and those with no voice and I choke up, because I know I am part of one of those groups.I clinch my hands in anxiety and anguish knowing that no matter what I do, I will only be a single small voice among millions of like minded people who yearn for peace, but are never listened to.I have the facade of a cynic, and I proclaim, "I hate people, because they always disappoint". This is my barrier to protect myself, but honestly, it does no good. I am a human being who is part of a larger community of this planet.My dad loved John Donne's poems so much that he had the poem, "No man is an island" posted on the wall in our garage when I was a kid. (if you haven't read it, read it). I loved it so much so, when my mom was sell our old house, I pealed off the wall and framed it. It's now in my garage.The republicans would love to make us all think that we are individuals and that it's every man & woman for themselves. But they can never truly break us, because we are feeling creatures and part of a global community. The republicans fight a futile battle and I think they know it deep down that is indeed futile.It's all just so much useless energy to divide us and make us war against ourselves, because in chaos, evil always wins.And because sometimes I cry, I need something that will lift me up when I'm really down in the pits of dispare.This is my all time favorite video that I watch when I'm feeling this way. It depicts a small slice of life among strangers and just how when the clutter of things are removed, just how we can all just life peacefully.Enjoy...
My gf works retail so as such our schedules don't always jibe and I find myself alone often at home with my dog.
Javaman (49,281 posts) https://www.democraticunderground.com/10029694480Sometimes I cry...
So instead of getting out and personally performing acts of human kindness, he watches videos of others doing it (and then lays around and cries about it)? It never dawned on you to do it yourself?The most simplest of thoughts never occur to these dolts..
Ted Kennedy is the only person with an actual confirmed kill in the war on women.
I find myself alone often at home with my dog.