I can empathize.
After all, I want Hillary to lose and lose badly. After the election, I want her to look back on her life. I want her very being ripped in half as she realizes all the decades of scheming, all the years of flouting the rules, the backroom deals and the fact she spend her best years riding the coattails of her philandering rapist of a husband were for nothing. I want her to spend her remaining years in abject misery when the power she has wanted for so long falls right through her hands and she eventually leaves this mortal coil as nothing more than maybe (maybe) a footnote in history and not the first female President.