claustrophobia keeps me from getting one of my neck
Thor, I have or did have extreme claustrophobia, I was cured by necessity.
I got a job as a lagger on military ships and had to face some really mind bending things.
First I had an extreme fear of heights, some of the ladders I had to go up and down were over 2 storeys tall.
To make it even more difficult I was recovering from a broken knee. I was into my mid 30's so I was no spring chicken.
To say the least to this day I do not know how or why I did this job, Thinking back it amazes me what I did back then , working in the buldges of ships, coming out of the hole covered with mud and fiberglass's one time I had enough red lead in my hair to paint a room in my house. After a few years away from that job my fear of heights came back, weird.
Then claustrophobia, How I hated being restrained in any way. That job boss called me squeeze as at 90 pounds I could wiggle my way into very small spaces. only thing that saved me was I had to really concentrate on my job. Those son of a guns put me in places the size of a coffin------
The thing was I knew that at any time I could get OUT. Same with an MRI or other medical caves they put us in. You and I can leave at any time, there are people around to help you.
As long as you has an out, you can work on the problem. Claustrophobia to me is is being in a place I cannot escape, ----say a crowd of people pushing me forward. being locked in a closet, ----this got really bad when I was pregnant with my no.4 baby. I kept dreaming that I had fallen into an empty freezer and knew that Hubby would be too late to save me.
The MRI's I have been in are all at least 3 feet out from the wall behind them, they are sort of set almost in the middle of the room. Good, if things become intense I can grab hold of the machine and slide out head first or wiggle out feet first.
All these machines are odd, the one they use to detect bone damage is a goodie. It keeps moving over your body and beeping light flash, you just lay there wondering what the beeps are for.
Strange and a bit unnerving, these machines can scare the willies out of someone.
However, you are free within them, in no way are you restrained, you are free to just lay there or run for the hills.
At one MRI it took the techs a while to get everything up to speed and they had placed a blanket over me so I did fall asleep. Next thing I knew they woke me up, told me not to cough, burp or fart.---
I was hooked up to speakers to the techs that talked and encouraged me, They played southing music and in my half awake state I wondered if I had been captured by Alians.
Imagine my surprise when I went in for a two day heart test and there stands a semi-chamber for me to crawl into after being nuked IV and spend 90 minutes with this thing moving only an inch from my nose and moving about now and then to take pictures of my innards. It seemed to take forever, but I can not do the stress test on a tread mill due to Nuropathy.
Fear is odd Thor, had I been given a walk through to my lagging job, told I would have to climb up and down the ladders, and eventually doing an asbestos rip off I would have run.
Please look at this as an Adventure, everytime you show up for a test you will see new and different technology. What ever they have to do to you to get tests, have no fear, these tests may be a once in a life time experience, no pain and an experience to take home and tell family about.
Walk into this as just of one of life's paths, watch everything others do to keep you alive. Ask questions of everyone about everything going on.
Jump onto that gurney to the machine and get your neck checked, darn Thor they are not going to tie you down , you can get out at any time.
I know easy for me to say, I am not you. All I can say is I as a scared chicken, afraid of most everything finally found that the best way to confront my deep seated fears was to just charge on in, all the crazy stuff I did was a learning experience.
My feel in life now at my my age is-----OK new experience, not going to kill me, lets see just where this takes me.
You Thore need that MRI on your neck, you have had enough MRIS to know what has happend in the past. ---No problem right.
I think your fear is not for the test, but for what you fear they will find.
Welcome to the Club,
