Furthermore, becoming homeless will only lessen my chances of living a law-abiding life in the future, a fact that both law-enforcement and mental health professionals concede.
So what you're saying then CCD, is that you CAN'T control yourself. well there's only one solution for that then:

I don't think you're a victim, I think the 'boys' whose lives you ruined are the victims here. You are just a mad dog like old yeller. And it didn't end to well for him, now did it?
Get odd the internet, find some work to keep you gainfully employed and maybe someday, you'll be a productive member of society. Don't, and the picture above may well be your fate.