While waiting for nadin to return, a visit to the nuthatch.
DUmmy irisblue is looking for some comforting words - from the DUmp loonybin!!
She should know that even with nadin on ice, someone will turn the thread around to make it all about themselves:
Mon Aug 11, 2014, 07:54 PM
Star Member irisblue (2,589 posts)
HeY! check in!
I have major depression as a dx........we need each other
http://www.democraticunderground.com/11515367#post4Response to irisblue (Original post)
Mon Aug 11, 2014, 09:27 PM
Star Member mopinko (41,923 posts)
3. holding my head above a shitstorm.
cymbalta working well. pain meds not so much, suffering from nsaid burn. carpal tunnels fixed, tho, so lowering the daily dose of oh shit.
but, hanging tight, fighting the good fight.
the news was a kick in the head, tho. wondering who else felt that way.
so seductive. makes you jump.
August 11? Is "the news" about the Robin Williams suicide, or the fat thug getting shot in Missouri?
Response to irisblue (Reply #4)
Tue Aug 12, 2014, 10:52 AM
Star Member mopinko (41,923 posts)
26. i have been really sick, too.
a neuropathy in my arm has been bumping up against my carpal tunnel, and my right arm has been a pain in the ass for 2 years. pain pills scorched my intestines, lost a lot of weight, woke up my gravel-y gall bladder, yeah. like that.
plus some persistent bronchitis.
but trudging i am. still.
If it weren't for bad luck she'd have no luck at all.
Isn't Big Mo a delightful person!
Tue Aug 12, 2014, 05:14 PM
Star Member murielm99 (13,622 posts)
34. Mo, you have children.
They never get over it. Survivor's guilt is real.
We are close to a family whose son committed suicide after two tours in Iraq. That was seven years ago. They will never be the same. His sister was in my daughter's wedding. She mentioned her brother. I have told her never to be reluctant to discuss her brother around me.
My son was close to the young man, too. I see the pain in his face quite often when the guy's name comes up. My son does work for suicide prevention now. At least that much good came out of it.
Response to murielm99 (Reply #34)
Tue Aug 12, 2014, 06:50 PM
Star Member mopinko (41,923 posts)
35. that has totally kept me going all these years.
unfortunately, when you divorce a person without conscience, they manipulate them away from you.
they have behaved atrociously.
but, the day he walked out was the first day of a new life. whatever it brings, i know it cant be as bad as having the next temper tantrum hanging over your head at all times.
Mon Aug 25, 2014, 10:46 AM
Star Member mopinko (41,923 posts)
44. i am hoping to come back as a dog myself.
a dog with a life like one of mine. spoiled kids, they are.
i suppose they will come around, but the thing is, it will never be the same. a betrayal at this level is just not something that heals without some major surgery.
i have apologized to them for my failings many times. i suppose major surgery might involve them accepting those apologies.
i just cant wait for it to be over. i see my lawyer wed to talk about what we want. there is plenty there to take care of me. the stress, tho. i have lost 40 lb. i have not been this small since before my first kid. i feel reedy. like i am fading.
when it ends, i get to start getting my strength back, tho, and i also know who my really true friends are now. cold consolation, but....
thx muriel. i love this little place.
even tho i know the cave dwellers do too
Can you imagine the celebration in that grimy Chicago neighborhood when Big Mo finally kicks the bucket?
The junk, the chickens, the filth, the rats can all be bulldozed away.
Response to irisblue (Reply #21)
Mon Aug 11, 2014, 11:57 PM
fizzgig (20,918 posts)
25. i haven't really had a good night's sleep in two weeks
not only did the pain keep me up, but the painkillers have given me whacked out dreams. i haven't needed them for close to a week, but i'm still feeling the effects. i need to drink more water to help flush the crap out.
Maybe it's not the crap. Maybe it's the dope.
Response to irisblue (Original post)
Wed Aug 13, 2014, 08:20 PM
Star Member Still Blue in PDX (1,588 posts)
36. Checking in . . .
I've been treated for years with low-dose Prozac, and I don't know if it helps much, but since I've starting taking it faithfully again I haven't had the passive suicidal thoughts. I also take clonazepam for restless leg syndrome, and I think it has a secondary effect of keeping the anxiety at bay.
I've considered suicide. What keeps me here is that my precious gray-faced dog would miss me.
No. Your precious gray-faced dog won't miss you.
He will eat your carcass.
When you're all gone, he'll get hungry.
Then he'll miss you.
Tue Aug 19, 2014, 04:10 AM
a la izquierda (8,668 posts)
38. 4am
Wide awake.
I see both my therapist and psychiatrist today. I haven't seen either in months as I've been out if the county.
Dx with depression, emotional internalization disorder, and generalized anxiety disorder.
My marriage is collapsing.
Oh, and my dad just found out he has cancer.
Good times.
This DUmmy is one of the most vicious in all of Skimmer's menagerie.
Could not happen to a nicer guy.
