Maybe some of y'all could see that. I am not sure. But I am confused at where I stand politically.
I guess Independent would describe me best. Of all nights, election night, I've finally admitted to myself that I am unsure of where I stand, and I HATE THAT. I can't say that I am hardcore democrat. I am certainly not hardcore republican. I can see both sides on many issues. I hate being so indecisive. I hate not being 100% either way. I hate being in the middle. But here I am. Being at DU for a while, and now reflecting on that made me realize I don't agree with a good bit of what is said and posted there. But I do agree with some it. I agree with some things here. Again not 100%. As much as I loathe abortion personally, I can never say it should be outlawed. I want gay people to have the same rights as I do. On that same note, I can't stand to see our soldiers be looked down on because of a war some don't agree with. I am iffy about the whole healthcare thing. My heart wants everyone to be able to get medical care no matter the cost. My brain tells me it may not be in our countries best interest. I am not sure what I think of richer people paying more taxes. Is is fair? No it isn't, but can it be beneficial? I hate seeing any group of any religion all lumped together. Muslims? They aren't all Osama. Many are evil. Many are so backwards it kills me. BUT I know some very kind peaceful Muslims, and my heart hurts for them for what some assholes have done to their religion. I, as a Christian, would hate to be compared to Fred Phelps or whoever the hell else is out there that is so effing backwards. And no he didn't blow up buildings and kill thousands, but what he does is almost as disgusting. Where does my heart and brain meet up? Somewhere down the damned middle. UGH!
Tonight while voting, I really thought of this. REally, I've been thinking about this for a while. I am one of those swing ****ing voters, and I hate it. I am not asking you to encourage me to be republican. I am merely venting and having some self relflection. I guess as I get older, my opinions may change and vary. I just don't know WTF is up with me right now.
Since I haven't posted much politically, I thought I'd put my thoughts down. So there you have it. I am ****ing confused. Sorry about my language. I am typing what I think as I think it.