Winter is always tough on...
Mon Nov 17, 2014, 04:04 PM
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Tobin S. (6,896 posts)
Winter is always tough on me, emotionally.
I know it's not actually winter yet, but we just got our first significant snow of the season and the temperature didn't get out of the 20s today. Tomorrow morning when I head off to work in the dark the forecast is for 11 degrees. I hate it. It wouldn't be as bad if I didn't drive for a living and work outside for part of the day. Hopefully, with some luck, I'll be done with that come January. But I think the short days and cold weather will still get to me.
Stuff like this runs through my head for weeks this time of year. I don't have any school work to do tonight and my wife has a nice dinner planned for us and then we are going to power watch our favorite TV show. I love my wife and I love my life with her. I imagine us sitting here on the couch snuggled up together while it is cold outside. We are sitting on an apparent rare oasis of a planet hurtling through space at an unimaginable speed. It's cold in space, too. A lot colder than an Indiana winter. Despite the astounding accomplishment of our evolutionary history, and some would say the apparent divinity of humankind, there is no evidence that we will survive more than a few moments in cosmic time. I will be holding onto my wife tonight with a lump in my throat wishing that we can always be together and knowing that life is very brief.
I know my wife has strong roots here, but I really wish we could live some place where it is warm year round.
CaliforniaPeggy (112,324 posts)
1. Ah, my dear Tobin...I understand your feelings; getting lost in the cold and snow happens when that's all you see for the immediate future. The seasons change, always, as this one will. It's easy to say that, but harder emotionally to deal with it. Perhaps some day she will change her mind and then you can move.
Star Member Tobin S. (6,896 posts)
I've been hospitalized three times for being suicidal.
It's been 11 years since the last time.
I apologize to you all for not being as active in this forum as I once was. I actually created this forum so that makes my lapse a little worse. I don't have as much time as I used to for DU in general, but when I've been here I should have been in this forum more often. It's my job to help keep it afloat.
Tue Aug 12, 2014, 09:21 PM
Star Member CaliforniaPeggy (112,325 posts)
1. Of course I'm glad you were part of the 70% that were treatable, my dear Tobin!
We need more research on therapies and medications that can help the approximately one third that we cannot currently reach. It IS a very pressing issue, indeed.
catsmtrod posted:
I find them huddled under a ton of blankets shivering waiting for me to come save them. I always ask them "don't you have a backup plan?"
Yeah I get to go save these asshats. I find them huddled under a ton of blankets shivering waiting for me to come save them. I always ask them "don't you have a backup plan?" To me living in the northeast without a way to keep yourself warm/alive if your heating system breaks down is, well that's why we call them DUmmies!
It's cold in space... there is no evidence that we will survive more than a few moments in cosmic time.
I will be holding onto my wife tonight with a lump in my throat wishing that we can always be together and knowing that life is very brief.
I sense a murder-suicide in their future.Something involving a wood chipper.
Star Member Tobin S. (6,896 posts)
I don't have as much time as I used to for DU in general,
That's why I've got two backup systems to keep warm, and I'm adding a third as soon as I get paid.
Ah. yes. The annual rendezvous with Cabin Fever. I usually catch it too. But in Late February, early March. Not at the doorstep of the Winter Solstice. And it's not because it's cold outside, but for getting impatient for the eventual arrival of Nature's Rebirth.I thought the libs loved the solstice. It's so mother earthy for them. They imagine themselves at stonehenge performing some kind of ancient/satanic ritual and those thoughts send waves of desires through their bodies.
My back-up plan is to hightail it to one of my brothers or my sister's, dragging my bedroll, pillow and Emergency Winter Kit if the furnace fails.
Good Gawd, Tobin, just f'in' kill yourself and spare us the turgid word-churning.
Tobin S. (6,896 posts)
Winter is always tough on me, emotionally.
I always hope I find them in a cold heap but sadly not yet. I have found frozen aquariums and toilets though!
The color yellow makes him sad.
The color yellow makes him sad.
Seasonal affective disorder (SAD)
Its prevalence in the U.S. ranging from 1.4% in Florida to 9.7% in New Hampshire
I don't understand how DUmmies that spend 90% of their time in the basement can be affected by winter.They emerge and see their moonshadow ...
I don't understand how DUmmies that spend 90% of their time in the basement can be affected by winter.
They emerge and see their moonshadow ...