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Oh my.
undergroundpanther (1000+ posts) Fri Feb-25-11 11:08 PM
THE SUBWAY CAT, #09 TOP PRIMITIVE OF 2010
Original message
Ugh..
Well,My mental health is going to shit.I have gotten a new therapist psych and program. They are very different than most I have been to.There were actually 2 psychiatrists who actually wanted to work with me. All my life it felt as if the staff were drawing straws to see who'd get stuck with me.. when I went for help.But,despite this good change,I'm still so messed up.
I noticed a big uptick in my symptoms.Been depressed since the fiasco with alliance/Andrefski,having to kick jon out of my life,finding out my alliance therapist didn't know squat about treating trauma..I wonder if trauma works on you like repeated exposures to toxins..What this analogy is, you can only take so many "hits" against the body as in toxic exposures or poisoning,sickness until your body loses it's capacity to heal, or the cells in your body start manufacturing bad DNA. I wonder if a person has too many experiences that are traumatic,the mind begins to lose resilience and it cannot take much more stress until it disintegrates..
I wonder this because before I had some resilience,I could bounce back.But this time after going through this crap that was very painful,that basically tore my life apart,I'm not able to get it together again like I used to..for 6 months I have been unable to motivate myself,I've become a couch potato and I forget to eat,drink,I don't want to do anything,everything is grey.
I'm always tired but I can't sleep worth shit..Some times I am awake from 10 am,until noon the next day.The day passes into night, I notice it's 6 am the sun is up so I try to sleep.I get maybe 4 hours and I'm up again until the next day,late. I am dog tired and my body will not let me sleep.My sleep clock has become totally nocturnal again.
Yesterday? I think it was yesterday during group at the new place I go, I was not able to manage shit internally. This has gotten to be a really awkward and hard to cope with is,sue.Worse than I thought it was.I find I am switching out I am totally unaware of it ,and apparently it happens often. I used to be able to co- manage,to keep a track of incidents and stuff I have to do, but not anymore.
At the group during program, someone took over inside and said some suicidal stuff and I had no sense anything happened afterwards. As I got coffee to feel more alert to get through the rest of the day, suddenly a lady staff I did not know but apparently knew,the program director,asked to talk ,we went to another room and she asked about suicidalness.She had called my therapist and she joined in after a minute or so.. At first I had no clue why I was called in there. I was a bit uneasy,especially after being ****ed with by alliance. I asked them what was going on,than I could not hold presence. I found out what it was all about,from them.I apologized,and the memory was given to me after the fact.
It has been very hard trying to have any sort of continuity of time or memory.It has been so very exhausting..
The urges to cut are off the charts.I haven't done any art for months I have no inspiration,no desire to do anything.
Alot of weird shit is happening,inside me and I don't know what to do.I am so very tired.
I miss coming to DU and participating. But I just lurk and after awhile sometimes my body shuts down and I lay here awake but not feeling good at all.I have a new strange thing going on in my head.I have had tinnitus for years,it has always sounded the same.I got it from being too close to a lightening strike years ago(long story). Suddenly the tinnitus has become variable in it's pitch.It's annoying more because the tinnitus also has developed an acoustic quality to it that feels like motion , it pulses from one ear to the other ear.
In my head I feel like something is freaking out,clawing tearing,throwing itself around to get out it makes my head feel like I want to drill a hole in my skull to make it stop or to let it go.I noticed this change like 5 months ago, it wasn't so severe than and it didn't happen much than so I thought it was pressure changes,effects of allergies..but now this feeling and the dizzy pulsing happens like 75 or more times a day and it is worse. It has an electrical quality,and I tried to figure out what could be causing it but I have ran out of possible causes. It just is.
My hands have become clumsy I drop things alot.My neurotic fingernail biting has gotten so bad the skin is torn as far down as past the second joint.I have been using alot of band aids.
There is alot of thought bleed over between people inside ,I hear the others talking more than ever but it is just out of my range of hearing to understand what they're saying. So it gets very confusing.I have been very irritable at times too.
Even my meds have no effects on this.I wonder if this stuff going to get worse? Can it get better? How long?
It's torture
So I'm I wondering if my mind is damaged through traumas in such a way it can't repair itself now?
My eyelids are heavy it's becoming harder to type so I'll have to stop..I know even if I lay down I'll just lay there.Sleep has been very un-restorative.
Maybe I should ask my psych to send me to the inpatient dissociative unit,'cause I don't know what to do.I can't go on like this forever.
Anybody know why the subway cat kicked out her freeloading boyfriend?
There's some replies, but they're other primitives talking with each other, not with the subway cat.
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My neurotic fingernail biting has gotten so bad the skin is torn as far down as past the second joint.I have been using alot of band aids.
Maybe it's just me, but if your skin is torn "as far down as past the second joint" you've gone beyond "fingernail biting" and are nearing the point of self-cannibalism.
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Maybe it's just me, but if your skin is torn "as far down as past the second joint" you've gone beyond "fingernail biting" and are nearing the point of self-cannibalism.
Tell me how this is a bad thing, Chuck . . . :???:
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You know....
when My dog wouldn't stop licking his wounds we put a big assed 'traffic cone' on his head.
(http://www.cat-health-behavior.com/images/mushroom-and-her-cat-purse-21243463.jpg)
...just saying.
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My mental health is going to shit.
You think you're a ****ing PANTHER, you're a cross-dresser, and God-only-knows what else.
I'd say your mental health went to shit a long, long time ago.
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Who's paying for all this "therapy"?
Whoever it is, that's what I call a negative ROI.
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That's the problem with this country. We used to lock these insane mofos into mental institutions. Half the DUmp would be there right now.
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You think you're a ****ing PANTHER, you're a cross-dresser, and God-only-knows what else.
I'd say your mental health went to shit a long, long time ago.
:lmao: :rotf: :lmao: :rotf: :lmao: :rotf:
H5s for you and Chris, with this to add for Chris' statement: If electroshock was used, more volts need to be in the equation. Then, some of the ROI would be the sheer entertainment of watching the DUmb**** writhe in agony. :zap:
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That's the problem with this country. We used to lock these insane mofos into mental institutions. Half the DUmp would be there right now.
Only half? Nice to see you set the bar nice and low.
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Only half? Nice to see you set the bar nice and low.
You have to make an allowance for the moles, Sparky.
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It's been at least 6 years now that I have witnessed the Dirt Kitty playing this for full effect. I'm sure the game pre-dated DU too so I'm thinking that Yes, yes you will continue this forever. :fuelfire:
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She'll never get better coz she wants to wallow in her illness..She should be kicked out of any therapy and let someone who wants the help to get better. There are many out there who could use help and can't get it coz a ****stick like her is using resources she don't need....
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You know....
when My dog wouldn't stop licking his wounds we put a big assed 'traffic cone' on his head.
(http://www.cat-health-behavior.com/images/mushroom-and-her-cat-purse-21243463.jpg)
...just saying.
LMAO! I would pay cash to see UGP in the Cone of Shame!
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LMAO! I would pay cash to see UGP in the Cone of Shame!
I think s/he would look fetching in the flower petal Cone of Shame.
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She'll never get better coz she wants to wallow in her illness..She should be kicked out of any therapy and let someone who wants the help to get better. There are many out there who could use help and can't get it coz a ****stick like her is using resources she don't need....
Ree, it wants a therapist to say that it is normal. That is what it craves. And, it will keep searching until it finds a therapist that will say that it is normal.
BTW, H5.
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She is a pathetic POS! She/it is playing this mental shit so she/it can get us to pay for her addadicktome. Or is it punchapussinme? I don't know! What a sick twit! Just shoot it.
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subway cat can't go on like this forever....the hell she can't, a cat has 9 lives......bitch will out live us all.
Oh, it seems that they're holding a meeting in the subway cat now to decide which personality dies....this time.
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She is a pathetic POS! She/it is playing this mental shit so she/it can get us to pay for her addadicktome. Or is it punchapussinme? I don't know! What a sick twit! Just shoot it.
Last I checked, Dissociative Identity Disorder was a permanent bar to diagnosis of Gender Identity Disorder.
[Wow. It took less than 24 hours for this to get really awkward.]
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Last I checked, Dissociative Identity Disorder was a permanent bar to diagnosis of Gender Identity Disorder.
[Wow. It took less than 24 hours for this to get really awkward.]
Her mental illness is so extreme that it sickens me to see how people continue to feed into it.
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My experience has been that 99.9% of the people on the internet claiming to have DID are a bunch of Borderline PD attention whores.
Hell, there's a significant portion of the psychiatric community that disputes the very existence of DID.
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My experience has been that 99.9% of the people on the internet claiming to have DID are a bunch of Borderline PD attention whores.
Hell, there's a significant portion of the psychiatric community that disputes the very existence of DID.
You are new, so you may not have been properly introduced to UGP before. She considers herself to be a male cat trapped in a female human's body. She claims to have been kidnapped by the CIA and forced to do "remote viewings" through the forced consumption of organic pineapple juice. She is loco, whether or not she has DID. She is undoubtedly an attention whore though. :mental:
Welcome to CC, enjoy your stay :cheersmate:
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That's only mildly disturbing. :sarcasm:
Not to mention incredibly trivializing of people with *actual* Gender Identity Disorder.
Male cat, my ass.
I totally vote Borderline Personality Disorder (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Borderline_personality_disorder). If only because it's my favorite category for people I can't stand.
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That's only mildly disturbing. :sarcasm:
Not to mention incredibly trivializing of people with *actual* Gender Identity Disorder.
Male cat, my ass.
I totally vote Borderline Personality Disorder (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Borderline_personality_disorder).
If only because it's my favorite category for people I can't stand.
Yeah, a lot of primitives do that, exaggerating their own victimhood, thus trivializing the plight of real victims.....and using up resources that can't be used, then, to help real victims.
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You are new, so you may not have been properly introduced to UGP before. She considers herself to be a male cat trapped in a female human's body. She claims to have been kidnapped by the CIA and forced to do "remote viewings" through the forced consumption of organic pineapple juice. She is loco, whether or not she has DID. She is undoubtedly an attention whore though. :mental:
Welcome to CC, enjoy your stay :cheersmate:
Good write up Rose. She also claims to be gay, but she's a woman (for all intents and purposes) who likes men. Not sure how she gets gay outta that.
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If she legitimately had Gender Identity Disorder, then gay would be accurate, since she'd be a male attracted to other men.
But "male cat trapped in human female body" is just... beyond absurd.
Is there a single marginalized community she isn't attempting to impose herself on?
Is she a *black* male cat?
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If she legitimately had Gender Identity Disorder, then gay would be accurate, since she'd be a male attracted to other men.
But "male cat trapped in human female body" is just... beyond absurd.
Is there a single marginalized community she isn't attempting to imposer herself on?
Is she a *black* male cat?
I didn't think of that. Here's me getting the idea now ---> :hammer:
I don't know if she thinks she's a black cat, but I do think she has a dead rooster spirit guiding her named Blackie. Fellow CCers, please correct me if I have the story wrong.
(http://i358.photobucket.com/albums/oo28/dlt323/ghost_chicken_by_surlana-d2ys4cf.jpg)
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I didn't think of that. Here's me getting the idea now ---> :hammer:
I don't know if she thinks she's a black cat, but I do think she has a dead rooster spirit guiding her named Blackie. Fellow CCers, please correct me if I have the story wrong.
Yeah, she thinks she's a male black panther, the cat, not the pimp. And Blackie, the dead talking rooster, is a key part of her world.
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If she legitimately had Gender Identity Disorder, then gay would be accurate, since she'd be a male attracted to other men.
But "male cat trapped in human female body" is just... beyond absurd.
Is there a single marginalized community she isn't attempting to impose herself on?
Is she a *black* male cat?
Well, there are black panthers . . .
(http://upload.wikimedia.org/wikipedia/commons/thumb/f/fc/Jaguar.jpg/220px-Jaguar.jpg)
which are actually jaguars.
I suppose that these Black Panthers . . .
http://www.newblackpanther.org/
are "black male cats," too. :tongue: :fuelfire:
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Yeah, she thinks she's a male black panther, the cat, not the pimp. And Blackie, the dead talking rooster, is a key part of her world.
:thatsright:
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A warning from Blackie. Take heed:
In the most recent dream,Blackie showed me Maryland,he took me to Montgomery County ,He took me to Delaware too, somewhere on the eastern shore,and showed me in pictures that Bird Flu will be here this summer from the looks of the trees it looked like june or july..
So I'm putting this up here.For Blackie.
We need to help the chicken spirits go home.We need to help the chickens suffering here if we can.If we want to avoid being hit hard by the Bird Flu.
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Wait, she knows about the Chicken Spirits?!?!
My G-d, I take it all back!
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This person lopped it's own tits off via a medical professional. It's brain was programmed as a woman. Now the wires are crossed most likely to no repair. She chews on her fingers? She hangs like a bat in her living quarters, (added extra flavor to the story) and is pumped full of meds? No wonder he/she is ****ed up beyond repair.
I have to admit, there is a small part of me...a tiny grain of my soul, that feels really sorry for the Kitty. Then I remember what a vile human being she/he is, and it passes.
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I would dispute that gender and sex always correlate, but clearly, this individual doesn't meet the basic requirements for Sex Reassignment Surgery, as she suffers from multiple disorders which make the diagnosis of Gender Identity Disorder impossible.
She doesn't even come close to meeting the Standards of Care for transgender persons.
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Anybody have that link to the subway cat's personal web-site?
I don't.
If one does, put up the usual warning.
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There's an entire site of her?
I'm not sure my therapist would approve of me viewing it. :D
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It's on MySpace and easy enough to find. Just make sure you have 911 on speed-dial before you take a good look at it.
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Anybody have that link to the subway cat's personal web-site?
I don't.
If one does, put up the usual warning.
http://www.myspace.com/undergroundpanther/blog
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Oh God, it's started blogging. And I thought the photographs were bad.
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Oh God, it's started blogging. And I thought the photographs were bad.
Me too.
When the subway cat seems she can't get any worse, she does.
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Wow. I love the unbelievable audacity of this whack job misappropriating the lable of female-to-male transgender, and then mocking someone else for "not really being trans".
Pot/kettle, much?
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It should get a job as a motivational speaker to high school students. Pay her to show up and read her blog/DU posts for an hour and call it 'drug awareness'.
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That's the problem with this country. We used to lock these insane mofos into mental institutions. Half the DUmp would be there right now.
Was the day we'd could lock em in cages and they'd get to work their way around the country for kibbles and jeers with the circus as well.
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Her pic on the left hand side will forever haunt me. I've seen it before, but I always get spooked when seeing it again. It's the kind of thing that would give Manson nightmares
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I have to admit, there is a small part of me...a tiny grain of my soul, that feels really sorry for the Kitty. Then I remember what a vile human being she/he is, and it passes.
Don't waste your compassion, sir.
There's plenty of other primitives with mental problems that you can feel sorry for.
The difference between them and the subway cat is, of course, the subway cat politicizing her ailments, real or alleged.
It's the same case as with the quarter-ton gigantic primitive; there's lots and lots of really fat primitives on Skins's island, and some overweight people on that nutrition web-site where the Las Vegas blimp hangs around, but notice decent and civilized people never make fun of them; only of the gigantic primitive.
It's because the gigantic primitive blames his fatness on George Bush and Republicans.
Once a primitive politicizes a problem, the primitive's fair game.
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Oh, I agree. However, since I am a decent, and civilized being myself. As such, there certainly is a tiny grain in my soul that feels sorry for the Subway Kitty. But like I said, it evaporates rather quickly...
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Oh, I agree. However, since I am a decent, and civilized being myself. As such, there certainly is a tiny grain in my soul that feels sorry for the Subway Kitty. But like I said, it evaporates rather quickly...
If that evaporation needs any help, consider how much the taxpayers of Maryland shelled out for those fancy tattoos, to say nothing of her surgical mutilations.
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If that evaporation needs any help, consider how much the taxpayers of Maryland shelled out for those fancy tattoos, to say nothing of her surgical mutilations.
And how much the Feds spent on organic pineapple juice.
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It was gone on page 3 when I saw that whack-a-doo shit.
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If that evaporation needs any help, consider how much the taxpayers of Maryland shelled out for those fancy tattoos, to say nothing of her surgical mutilations.
She would live in one of the very few states that covers SRS, wouldn't she...
Convenient.
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Her pic on the left hand side will forever haunt me. I've seen it before, but I always get spooked when seeing it again. It's the kind of thing that would give Manson nightmares.
:lmao: :rotf: :lmao: :rotf: :lmao: :rotf:
You almost owed me a new screen, Rev. H5!
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You think you're a ****ing PANTHER, you're a cross-dresser, and God-only-knows what else.
I'd say your mental health went to shit a long, long time ago.
I was goin' to say, this is a no brainer, ain't it, and I never had a single class in psycho!
Then, if that ain't enough, she wants to share with the DUmp!
Talk about an attention whore!
She'll never get better coz she wants to wallow in her illness..She should be kicked out of any therapy and let someone who wants the help to get better. There are many out there who could use help and can't get it coz a ****stick like her is using resources she don't need....
The Undetermined*****Cat is a professional victim! She can't quit! If she did she would have to realize she's deformed herself to the point she is no longer worth anything to society! Nuttin', nada! Not even "Soylent Green"!
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The Undetermined*****Cat is a professional victim! She can't quit! If she did she would have to realize she's deformed herself to the point she is no longer worth anything to society! Nuttin', nada! Not even "Soylent Green"!
First of all ^5 on the name.
Second, ShIT does have this going for it,
(http://image.spreadshirt.com/image-server/image/composition/3892011/view/1/producttypecolor/257/type/png/width/378/height/378/light-blue-im-not-totally-useless-i-can-be-used-as-a-bad-example-women-s-t-shirts_design.png)
:-)
BTW you can buy this tee shirt here (http://www.spreadshirt.com/light-blue-im-not-totally-useless-i-can-C3376A3635008).
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^ Unless it comes in other colors, I don't think I'll be wearing that.
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^ Unless it comes in other colors, I don't think I'll be wearing that.
Here ya go (http://www.spreadshirt.com/ash-im-not-totally-useless-i-can-be-use-C3376A3635013) mens shirts with color selections available. :rotf:
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If she legitimately had Gender Identity Disorder, then gay would be accurate, since she'd be a male attracted to other men.
But "male cat trapped in human female body" is just... beyond absurd.
Is there a single marginalized community she isn't attempting to impose herself on?
Is she a *black* male cat?
:lmao:
Most likely.
On a serious note, this woman/man/cat/human :???:obviously has mental health issues. If what she writes is true, she belongs in a 24/7 institution instead of roaming around where she could conceivably do harm to herself or others.
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Here ya go (http://www.spreadshirt.com/ash-im-not-totally-useless-i-can-be-use-C3376A3635013) mens shirts with color selections available. :rotf:
Classic. I have bookmarked that page. :cheersmate:
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Good write up Rose. She also claims to be gay, but she's a woman (for all intents and purposes) who likes men. Not sure how she gets gay outta that.
She licks herself....like a cat?? :???: