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Current Events => The DUmpster => Topic started by: franksolich on May 21, 2009, 06:55:49 AM
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Oh my.
TZ (1000+ posts) Wed May-20-09 05:11 PM
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I'm a ****ing joke
Literally in a month I will be...a Forty year old virgin. Just like the *******ed movie. I've failed at every relationship I've ever had or tried to have. I'm totally alienated from my family. And I may have just alienated a wonderful friend..I apologized for my bad behavior of the last week or so, but I've heard nothing back yet...
she's busy but it scares me, and after the awful things I said and her totally correct lecture on me..I'm not so sure she wants anything to do with me and I'm terrified to approach again and yet it would destroy me to know the friendship is over..
Which would be just the latest in a long string of broken/dropped/friendships relationships my entire life. I know what my problems are..too clingy, don't deal with boundaries too well..try to hard to live vicariously through others..but I can't stop making the same mistakes over and over again.
The very definition of insanity...I know I need to go back on meds (my doctor forgot to refill my Lexapro a month ago and I've been so busy with physical ailements -Just back from Mayo clinic) that I haven't had a chance to refill that. I know I should probably get a psychiatrist as well but I'm scared to do that...
I know I'm an awful person and I'm afraid to see it to acknowledge just how awful...and yet I know I need to get the help...My job is suffering right now...I'm keeping my coworkers that I normally socialize at at arms length.
And you know what the worst is..Its so hard for me to be around happiness at the momemt..It just makes me realize what a miserable mess I am. I cry all the time. Only time I'm not unhappy is when I'm asleep.
Oh and to top it, there is someone I'm interested in, but who is almost totally unavailable due to distances in space and time..AND I'm not sure is emotionally ready to be more than my friend anyway..but I still have feelings for them even though I have not talked to them in ages...
I'm posting here in desperation....I may have hit emotional rock bottom today.
Odin2005 (1000+ posts) Thu May-21-09 12:32 AM
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2. *Hugs TZ*
Whatever you do, don't give in the self-hating, it's a downward slope into oblivion.
spoony (1000+ posts) Thu May-21-09 05:10 AM
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3. You're looking through a foggy lens
It makes everything look bad and irreparable, it screws up your sense of self and sense of yourself relative to others. Trust me, there's a lot that's good that's being obscured in that fog. Get that Lexapro filled and let it help wipe things clearer for you, because I promise you you're not a joke and you're not an awful person. When I'm not on my Lexapro, I feel the same way.
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100 bucks for 15 minutes in nevada will fix that.
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100 bucks for 15 minutes in nevada will fix that.
The TZ primitive is the primitive once known as the turtlensue primitive.
So I dunno.
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And the DUmmies were just thrilled about some measure where 0bama was going to get the mentally ill employed...
Found it:
Helping Mentally Ill People Find Jobs Could Save Federal Government $368 Million A Year (http://www.democraticunderground.com/discuss/duboard.php?az=show_mesg&forum=389&topic_id=5692315&mesg_id=5692315)
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And the DUmmies were just thrilled about some measure where 0bama was going to get the mentally ill employed...
Uh-oh.
That's not good news for the subway cat.
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100 bucks for 15 minutes in nevada will fix that.
65 bucks would get you half an hour and better service in Nogales, Mexico. Not that I would know..... :whistling:
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Uh-oh.
That's not good news for the subway cat.
Well we've always wondered what she would look like in an orange vest carrying a garbage bag along the shoulder of the highway.
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Just another in a long line of mentally ill DUmpmonkeys who realizes it is mentally ill, knows everything in its life has been a lousy mentally ill choice, knows it needs help, but cannot begin to believe its political choices may be due to mental illness too - even as it looks around and sees so many more just like him at the DemocratUnderground.com.
They never can make that vital connection.
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I posted a video from a ummmm dating service in shortbus for just the guy for her.
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His every other word is "I".
Maybe if he realized that he has to be a friend to have one things would be simpler for him but as a DUmmy he will never stop being 100% self centered.
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Odin2005 (1000+ posts) Thu May-21-09 12:32 AM
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2. *Hugs TZ*
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It seems a blow-job would be more theraputic in this case.
Cover your buddy.
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Just back from Mayo clinic
God, do these ****ers WORSHIP the Mayo Clinic, or what? Imagine being an administrator there, looking out over the parking lot at all the 1978 Chevettes and VW Buses caked with Gore/Kerry/Obama/pro-abortion/gun control/BUCK FUSH stickers. Remind me to NEVER go near the Mayo Clinic again.
(they revere the Mayo, but of course after universal healthcare they expect all of those world class experts to settle for $75K a year)
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And you know what the worst is..Its so hard for me to be around happiness at the momemt..
Explains why he is posting at DU.
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Is Tizzy a male, female or it?
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Is Tizzy a male, female or it?
Yes.
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Oh for cryin' out loud, just shoot yourself and get it over with! Oh, I forgot, you hate guns. Well just remember it's inline, not across! And fill the bathtub with hot water, it's over quicker that way.
LOSER!
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Gawd, instead of getting the Lexapro refilled, why not just get a prescription for sleeping pills and get it over with? Talk about biggest loser! This one absolutely refuses to do anything to better her life. I mean when a DUmmie is too scared to see a therapist it's time to go down with the ship.
Cindie
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TZ
And you know what the worst is..Its so hard for me to be around happiness at the momemt..It just makes me realize what a miserable mess I am. I cry all the time. Only time I'm not unhappy is when I'm asleep.
The motto for Skin's island.
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Dennis Prager says that happiness is of a first-rank importance. We owe it to those around us to be happy. It's a moral obligation, we have no right to inflict our misery on others. This DU'er needs to get Pragers book, "Happiness is a serious problem". I would be glad to send my copy to him for free. :p
“All happy people are grateful. Ungrateful people cannot be happy. We tend to think that being unhappy leads people to complain, but it's truer to say that complaining leads to people becoming unhappy.†~ Dennis Prager
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Dennis Prager says that happiness is of a first-rank importance. We owe it to those around us to be happy. It's a moral obligation, we have no right to inflict our misery on others. This DU'er needs to get Pragers book, "Happiness is a serious problem". I would be glad to send my copy to him for free. :p
“All happy people are grateful. Ungrateful people cannot be happy. We tend to think that being unhappy leads people to complain, but it's truer to say that complaining leads to people becoming unhappy.†~ Dennis Prager
I know Amway when I smell it.
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I know Amway when I smell it.
You are on a roll today, I have read some of your other posts in other threads. :-)
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Oh for cryin' out loud, just shoot yourself and get it over with! Oh, I forgot, you hate guns. Well just remember it's inline, not across! And fill the bathtub with hot water, it's over quicker that way.
LOSER!
Maybe he should throw himself in front of a hybrid.
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Is Tizzy a male, female or it?
It was one of the participants at the recent DU meetup that got a mention here. One might want to use that thread as a reference.
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Mole and a ****ing good mole at that.
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You are on a roll today, I have read some of your other posts in other threads. :-)
It must be an imposter. I haven't been online all day. :innocent:
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It was one of the participants at the recent DU meetup that got a mention here. One might want to use that thread as a reference.
It is a she and a very disturbed looking one at that....explains a lot.
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Well we've always wondered what she would look like in an orange vest carrying a garbage bag along the shoulder of the highway.
Male panthers trapped in female human physicalities NEVER wear orange vests. It clashes with the whale blubber around the mid-section.