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TZ (1000+ posts) Wed May-20-09 05:11 PMOriginal message I'm a ****ing joke Literally in a month I will be...a Forty year old virgin. Just like the *******ed movie. I've failed at every relationship I've ever had or tried to have. I'm totally alienated from my family. And I may have just alienated a wonderful friend..I apologized for my bad behavior of the last week or so, but I've heard nothing back yet...she's busy but it scares me, and after the awful things I said and her totally correct lecture on me..I'm not so sure she wants anything to do with me and I'm terrified to approach again and yet it would destroy me to know the friendship is over..Which would be just the latest in a long string of broken/dropped/friendships relationships my entire life. I know what my problems are..too clingy, don't deal with boundaries too well..try to hard to live vicariously through others..but I can't stop making the same mistakes over and over again. The very definition of insanity...I know I need to go back on meds (my doctor forgot to refill my Lexapro a month ago and I've been so busy with physical ailements -Just back from Mayo clinic) that I haven't had a chance to refill that. I know I should probably get a psychiatrist as well but I'm scared to do that...I know I'm an awful person and I'm afraid to see it to acknowledge just how awful...and yet I know I need to get the help...My job is suffering right now...I'm keeping my coworkers that I normally socialize at at arms length. And you know what the worst is..Its so hard for me to be around happiness at the momemt..It just makes me realize what a miserable mess I am. I cry all the time. Only time I'm not unhappy is when I'm asleep.Oh and to top it, there is someone I'm interested in, but who is almost totally unavailable due to distances in space and time..AND I'm not sure is emotionally ready to be more than my friend anyway..but I still have feelings for them even though I have not talked to them in ages...I'm posting here in desperation....I may have hit emotional rock bottom today.
Odin2005 (1000+ posts) Thu May-21-09 12:32 AMResponse to Original message 2. *Hugs TZ* Whatever you do, don't give in the self-hating, it's a downward slope into oblivion.
spoony (1000+ posts) Thu May-21-09 05:10 AMResponse to Original message 3. You're looking through a foggy lens It makes everything look bad and irreparable, it screws up your sense of self and sense of yourself relative to others. Trust me, there's a lot that's good that's being obscured in that fog. Get that Lexapro filled and let it help wipe things clearer for you, because I promise you you're not a joke and you're not an awful person. When I'm not on my Lexapro, I feel the same way.
100 bucks for 15 minutes in nevada will fix that.
And the DUmmies were just thrilled about some measure where 0bama was going to get the mentally ill employed...
Uh-oh.That's not good news for the subway cat.
Odin2005 (1000+ posts) Thu May-21-09 12:32 AMResponse to Original message 2. *Hugs TZ* ...
Just back from Mayo clinic
And you know what the worst is..Its so hard for me to be around happiness at the momemt..
Is Tizzy a male, female or it?
TZAnd you know what the worst is..Its so hard for me to be around happiness at the momemt..It just makes me realize what a miserable mess I am. I cry all the time. Only time I'm not unhappy is when I'm asleep.
Dennis Prager says that happiness is of a first-rank importance. We owe it to those around us to be happy. It's a moral obligation, we have no right to inflict our misery on others. This DU'er needs to get Pragers book, "Happiness is a serious problem". I would be glad to send my copy to him for free. “All happy people are grateful. Ungrateful people cannot be happy. We tend to think that being unhappy leads people to complain, but it's truer to say that complaining leads to people becoming unhappy.†~ Dennis Prager
I know Amway when I smell it.
Oh for cryin' out loud, just shoot yourself and get it over with! Oh, I forgot, you hate guns. Well just remember it's inline, not across! And fill the bathtub with hot water, it's over quicker that way.LOSER!
You are on a roll today, I have read some of your other posts in other threads.