Mon Jul 4, 2016, 12:57 AM
Star Member Tobin S. (8,821 posts)
I have resolved one of the most important issues in my life tonight.
And it only took me 43 years to do it.
I think about three quarters of Americans are bat shit crazy. The number might be closer to seven eighths. There is no other explanation for the state we are in now. I'm not being all high and mighty here. I'm certified crazy and I have the psych meds to show for it. I have bipolar disorder. The difference between me and most other Americans is that I know I'm crazy and I'm trying to make myself a saner person.
Yep, our society is just nuts. When that is the case, the reaction most people will have is to become crazy as well. A big reason for my problems is that I was raised by crazy people who really didn't know what love was. But they were only reacting to their perception of reality which is insane in this country. When you are raised in an insane asylum, you have no choice but to be crazy. There is no other option when that is all you have known since birth. It takes a serious jolt to your psyche to be able to see outside of that...to be able to see outside of your worldview.
I had a really hard night at work tonight. I didn't do a damn thing, but it was probably one of the toughest eight hours of my life. There was no one around, but I had to be in there just in case I was needed. I didn't do anything but sit there and think all night, and I got lost in my head like I used to before I got treatment. I'm very introverted. Some people see that as a positive trait, but it almost cost me my life. Before treatment I would get lost in my head for long periods of time. It would get to the point where I couldn't find my way back to here and I would come to the conclusion that I was better off dead. That's one hell of a price to pay just for trying to figure stuff out.
But that didn't happen tonight. It ended at about a half hour before my shift was up. I had one of those epiphany type moments when I realized it's not just me or just 5% of the population. The normal state of being in our society is bat shit insane. Few people in our country have a good grasp on reality.
The first question was, "What the hell is going on?" The next question is, "What do I do now?"
I'll tell you what to do now, Tubbs. Look in the mirror and figure out what is wrong in your life and change it. You do seem to have more gumption than the dummies... so use it!!!! Quit worrying about shit you cannot change and change the shit you can. Quit worrying about everybody else and worry about yourself.
I'll wave my 5 cent fee in this case for the simple reason I would like to see you succeed. Once you taste success, you will be a dummy no longer.
Now do it. Just do it. No excuses, no BS, just freaking do it. Then you will have made the conversion to the rest of us sane people and figure out the dump is for losers. Admitting you have a problem is the first step.
Good luck.