Read "Wild Swans" by Jung Chang. Her grandfather was a Kuomintang general, and her parents were mid-level Communist officials who were persecuted by Mao Tse-Tung. She escaped to America.
This is my best advice to understand the Chinese mindset. Her book is very clear and well-written.
www.audible.ca is offering it as a "Free audiobook with free trial".
Understand you've been tired lately. Try the audiobook. You can get it for free. Her story is quite fascinating and entertaining. I highly recommend it.
Be strong, my friend. We need you. Re Bernie ("the sourassed, sourpussed, etc."; how's it go again?), listen to the audiobook to understand the complex reasons I doubt he would receive those votes in great number.